Two Years of Tears - Both Sorrow & Joy



Leah's 20 week ultrasound



Leah's 20 week 3-D Ultrasound showing her
sweet little face and tiny hands

Leah's 20 week 3-D Ultrasound showing
her cutelittle face, hands, leg and foot

Leah's cute little fact getting ready to suck
her thumb, with her foot sticking up next
to her hand

Today is the 2 year anniversary of the beginning of our journey with Leah.  It is the day that grief entered my world.  It is the day the tears started to fall.  It was the beginning of an incredibly deep season of faith, sorrow, prayer and growth.  It is the day the thought first entered my mind, that my daughter Leah may go somewhere that I could not immediately follow her.
Romans 12:12 says, "Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." Our journey with Leah has taken us down a long bittersweet road. As waves of grief continue to come, I must be patient as I endure these afflictions which cause pain. I need to be patient with myself as my heart heals, and I need to be patient and allow God to bring me through my grief according to His time schedule, not my own. Even in the loss of my daughter, I can still have hope. For I believe the subject of one's hope is what can bring strength and comfort in the very face of despair and seemingly hopeless circumstances. With my faith, trust and hope placed firmly in Jesus, I eagerly await my reunion with Leah in Heaven. It is by God’s strength alone, I am learning to smile through the tears, as I get better at answering the simple questions in life again. How many children do I have? I have 2 beautiful daughters, Kyla and Leah. Each is a precious gift from the Lord!