Leah's Heaven Day ~ 3 Years Later

Finding the perfect way to spend June 27th this year seems impossible.  How can I possibly find enough ways of expressing the love bursting from within this mother's heart, for my sweet daughter who has gone on to Heaven?  Luke will need to be at work, Ezra will need to be nursed, held, snuggled and put down for his naps. Kyla still needs me to be her mom.  I know I can't get the day off from life, so to speak. This year, we can't just get away, and spend the entire day focused together as a family upon Leah's life.   Yet, I know she is a part of every single thing I will do on that day.  From giving Kyla and Ezra kisses, to making their breakfasts, to even changing dirty diapers.  On this day, we will tell Ezra about his big sister, whom he's never gotten to meet.  We will look at pictures, watch some home movies and just be still in the moment knowing we were so blessed to have 99 days with Leah.  I hope to get three purple balloons for Kyla to release....sending them up to her sister on this day.

It seems so hard to realize we've had to live now three whole years without Leah.  As her mom, it is hardest for me, I know that.  For Kyla, it causes her to probe deeper than a child her age should have to, about questions of life and death.  Just yesterday, she burst into tears, at the thought of going to Heaven, without her favorite purple hippo, Kiki.  For she experienced first hand, how every single one of Leah's belongings, was left behind when her spirit went to Heaven.  For Luke, there is sorrow over the grief his wife still battles, from season to season.

Yet, this year, on June 27th, our hearts are full of joy and grattitude for our new baby boy.  This is the first time, we've had a new member of the family to introduce to Leah on her Heaven Day.  We have such a rich spiritual legacy that Leah left to our family.  We have so many monuments of God's faithfulness to us, even in losing our child.

Thinking of you today, Leah, and the perfections you are experiencing in Heaven!